It's Been So Long

I don't know what I was thinking

Leaving my child behind

Now I suffer the curse and now I am blind

With all this anger, guilt and sadness

Coming to haunt me forever

I can't wait for the cliff at the end of the river

Is this revenge I am seeking?

Or seeking someone to avenge me?

Stuck in my own paradox, I wanna set myself free

Maybe I should chase and find

Before they'll try to stop it

It won't be long before I'll become a puppet

It's been so long

Since I last have seen my son lost to this monster

To the man behind the slaughter

Since you've been gone

I've been singing this stupid song so I could ponder

The sanity of your mother

I wish I lived in the present

With the gift of my past mistakes

But the future keeps luring in like a pack of snakes

Your sweet little eyes, your little smile is all I remember

Those fuzzy memories mess with my temper

Justification is killing me

But killing isn't justified

What happened to my son? I'm terrified

It lingers in my mind

And the thought keeps on getting bigger

I'm sorry my sweet baby, I wish I've been there

It's been so long

Since I last have seen my son lost to this monster

To the man behind the slaughter

Since you've been gone

I've been singing this stupid song so I could ponder

The sanity of your mother